So...

I skipped again.
I am so grounded.
But I just dont feel like doing anything.
At all.
Im just in my usual slump and i'll get over it eventually.
Except this doesnt feel normal for me.
Its equally as miserable but all i want to do is sleep.
Because my dreams are so much better than reality.
I hate being awake, I hate living, but im actually scared to die.
Because not knowing is the worst thing ever.
A friend told me not to fear death, because, pain, sadness, despair, thoughs are all human things. After you die, your inhuman. So pain doesnt exist.
But then neither does love.
So idk...

My life is like a sick comedy-drama where I'm the main character and everyone is giving me shit the whole time all the time. Always tearing me down. I keep watching because I still believe there is a chance that things can get better in my life. I wont change the channel, until im absolutely sure this isnt what I worth watching.

Wow

Just wow. His words are so sweet. Talking with him makes me happy. And its so cool becuase we just totally understand each other. But just the way he makes me feel like im somebody worth caring for is the greatest feeling in the world.

"I dont think I could ever not care about someone like you. As odd as that might sound. You're just really amazing, someone I think deserves to be happy and treated with love and care."

"You're amazing and you deserve nothing less than the best. They're just jealous that you're truely amazing, I dont think anyone could match that. So of course they're going to try and take it away from you. But I wont let them! lol, You are amazing!! Dont let anyone tell you otherwise. "

"Thats so beautiful =) You're a really interesting person xD Different, but in a good way. "

"Yes I do say different alot. I dont talk to normal people.
I guess i kinda use it to describe something when I dont really know what else to say. It means theres a quality in you that I havent seen before. That I think is really fucking beautiful. Pardon my languange, only intended on emphasis. xD "