Fuck fuck fuck fuck!

This day just keeps getting worse.
no this week is.
Its been all fucking week.
First shit with someone from my past.
And that is fucking with my head massively.
Everyday is downhill with that.
And then today Layne breaks up with me.
Which sucks becuase i cant even be mad about it.
After nationals hes going to try out for cirque du sole.
And I cant be mad because he is following his dreams.
But it doesnt stop it from hurting.
And now my fucking uncle is coming over this weekend and i have to be here.
I dont want to fucking see him.
I dont want to meet his bitch of a new wife.
I dont fucking care.
And then my parents tell me that we are going to get passpports becuase my uncle is losing his job so he is moving down to new mexico with her.
So now were stuck going down over the summer as well.
I dont want any fucking part of it.
None of it.
Fuck.
I dont even want to wake up tomorrow.
Becuase something else bad will happen. And i cant fucking take it anymore.
Its all so fcuked.
And i am so sick of crying all the time.

Choke On This- Senses Fail

Half smoked cigarettes and you're the trash
That infests my sheets
Can't make a wife out of a whore,
Don't want your skin on me

And you're,
You're addicted to the drug of lust
A detox in the cold sweat of shame
And I love your pain

I gave you these roses now but I left in the thorns
I'd rather hurt someone than hurt myself
I'll dispose of you like a lighter out of fuel
I'll lose you somewhere on a dusty shelf

So this love's been worn down, like songs on a tape
The sex has lost all of its fun, like gum loses taste

And you're
You're addicted to the drug of lust
A detox in the cold sweat of shame
And I love your pain

I gave you these roses now but I left in the thorns
I'd rather hurt someone than hurt myself
I'll dispose of you like a lighter out of fuel
I'll lose you somewhere on the shelf

I'm here, lying in your bed, babe
Remember what you said to me
"You can be my James Dean; I'll be your sweet queen"

I said that you were my first, but you weren't even close, now
Like a frame in a movie, you're just one of many
Can you grant me one last wish?
Play russian roulette as we kiss
I'll be your cheap novelty
Blow your brains out on me

I gave you these roses now but I left in the thorns
I'd rather hurt someone than hurt myself
I'll dispose of you like a lighter out of fuel
I'll lose you somewhere on the shelf