i dont get it.
i dont get you.
i dont get any of this.
i dont get why this is happening.
i dont get why i care still.
i dont get why any of this matters.
i dont get why im being so difficult.
i dont any of it.
i wish i knew why you acted that way.
i wish i knew why i acted that way.
i wish i knew why you made my heart, head and tummy feel funny.
i wish i knew why any of this is going to cause me to stay in therapy for years to come.

*Meltdown*

I feel like exploding.
Everything is just breaking down.
First off, I cant believe its over.
Were meeting up to saw goodbye.
That is hard for me to comprehend.
Seriously. It just is.
And I feel like i'm going to be sick.
Then there are so many people having so many problems and i cant help them all.
Not to mention im bitchy from this lifestlye change and i really want a big mac.
I have no clean clothes and im suppoed to go out in an hour and a half.
!!!!!!!
Fucking dirty cuntface son of a bitch!!