=D

I love how He is the last thing on my mind before I fall asleep,
and how he is the first thing on my mind when I wake up.
Even if we dont really talk all day, we still always say good night, and good morning.
I doubt he knows how much it makes my day.
I hope he feels the same.

Like seriously

There is nothing i hate more than arrogant assholes who tear other people down because of who they are, or what they wear or their sexuality.
It bugs me right to the core.
Case in point, this jerk is being an ass, threatening to beat up a friend of mine because he is homosexual.
Being homosexual is not a big deal.
And if you do ever hurt him, you will regret it.
I mean what if being homosexual was normal, and being heterosexual was not?
Then you would bug the people who were hetero.
Its like, if you liked blue, but someone else liked red, would you torment them?
Probably not.
Because you are scared and uncomfortable doesn't give you the right to decide whats right and whats wrong.
Nor does it give you the right to make him scared and uncomfortable.
Your a BULLY.
And I will find a way to bring you down.
No, I'm not going to bully or harass you, because that would make me just like you.
Instead I will find a way to get people to rise up and make you turn your tail and run.
Just wait.

Teen night= Epic awesomeness

It was great.
Its been awhile since i have laughed and smiled so much.
I had such a great night.
Except the fat little jerks who fucking kicked me on the thunder run.
Your so lucky Layne didnt let me flip shit on you.
***Eeek, My Laynie :heart:****
What a sweetheart.
And yes i understand how mushy i am being, and yes, it even wants to make me gag.
But still.
:bigger heart:
:smiley face:

*I am ridiculous.

Yeah, fuck that noise
Creeper.

Ok.

Its all ok.
I am going to make it.
Meanwhile on planet Xanax
Princess Vix is still srtuggling to feel accepted amoung the new tribe.
She feels awkward and weird.
But Stax and Aax are trying to make her feel welcome.

I swear if that boy is mad at me I will never forgive you.
Because yes, I told him everything.
Why? Because I was in a huff and he wanted to know what was wrong.
And yesterday I was sick, today he is.
Now I know that my illness was directly related to stress.
His, I have no clue.
And I miss him.
We haven’t really talked much.
We text long enough to say good morning and let each other know were sick and not going to be there.
And I am so afraid about what he is thinking.
Feeling.
And I feel like crying, but I can’t.
Because I’m in this stupid class.
And I don’t want to look like a dolt.
You might be thinking, well why did I tell him?
Because I am a fairly honest person. I do lie sometimes, I can admit that.
But if I don’t have to I don’t need to, and when something is bad enough to make me spend all fucking day puking my guts out, yeah I think it’s something I should be truthful about.
If not then that’s just one more thing eating away at me.
See, but now I’m worried because I haven’t seen him.
And he has to work like all day Saturday and Sunday afternoons he has training.
So yeah. And because he most likely wont be able to go out tonight since he stayed home today, I can’t see him tonight.
Now this, this is very disheartening.
Because I can’t gauge his reaction if I don’t see him.
And if he is acting indifferent, well I simply can’t tell.
And you are the root of all problems. This time.
Maybe I will end up hating you.
Who fucking knows. At this point I am not happy. Not at all.
Thank you so much.
I really want to drown you in tears and vomit.
Have a GREAT day.
Plus Devon killed Ant George.
Aaron and Kerry are still dating (I think) and neither of them wants to be.
Amanda and Jamie are still having issues.
And Steph took a really bad picture of me. Which will most likely end up on facebook.
*Sigh*

*Vomit*

Stress induced illness is not fun.
I have spent my morning throwing up.
Like really.
That was a load and a half.
Way to much for me to handle right now.
Especially after having an already emotionally draining day.
You knew I had a bad day. So why would you say anything.
Your thing of making me want to hate you, couldn't really work.
Despite the fact i hold grudges, your still too sweet to make me hate you.
Hope we can be friends,
Because forgetting about you isn't an option.
But I am going to be mad for a while.
But thank you, and I wish every happiness for you.
Hope life treats you well.

-Samantha