Best/worst weekend ever.

Its always great to have the 2 people you hold near and dear be mad at you.
I understand why, but still.
Kinda hurts.
Guess i deserve it.
Why would I ever deserve to be totally happy?
But that's another thing, My mom.
She is so proud of me.
That is good.
I hope i just don't screw up.
Which i don't plan to.
But still.
It like walking on eggshells.
But I am so happy, I have accomplished;
Going to school,
Having friends (for the most part)
Having a normal relationship with my parents,
And yeah just being a normal teen.
And i had so much fun swimming, i can not wait to go back.
Unfortunately i have to.
3 Weeks.
So sad.
And i know i shouldn't be worried, but i am, about fitting in with his friends.
They seem very open and honest, and goofy and fun.
Still.
And I cant wait for him to meet my parents, his parents are so cool.
And so chill, like really, i felt so comfortable there.
But for a bit it was, you can sit Sam; You can relax Sam.
They don't bite Sam.

Thump-Thump. Thump-Thump.

Dude, ok so my tattoo was awesome.
It totally didnt even really hurt.
I feel like such a wipm when i think about how scared i was.
It just felt like being scratched.
And now it just feels sunburnt.
I wish i would have let you came, I mean it took five whole minutes.
My mom is going tomorrow for hers.
I really liked Del.
He was awesome, funny and sweet.
And despite being covered in tattoo's and working in a tattoo parlor he is a contry hick who likes to watch NASCAR truck series.
My mom likes him better than the gruff guy who did her last tattoo.

Wow...just wow.

Last night was awesome.
I love meeting new people.
I love having reckless fun.
I love being able to relax.
I'm happy.

Spab : To stab somebody using a spoon. Usually for humiliation or comical purposes.

I am so tired right now, I feel like I’m going to drop.
And I really should be doing my math homework. Like seriously. Fuck. Did I mention I am having hot flashes? No, well I am.
Oh well, it’s Friday, finally. Only problem is I have no idea what I’m doing tonight. Rawr. If I don’t find out what I’m doing I’ll see if Jess wants to go to teen night. Because after tomorrow I cant go swimming for three weeks. Wicked. So I have three weeks to lose about 100 pounds. Then I can compare to the pretty skinny girls. I mean if guys think skeletons are hot, then great. Sure why not, lets assimilate everyone into being as fucked as Nicole Ritchie. I mean eating disorders are the way of the future. Woot Woot.
BTW Happy (non) Birthday Carson. We know its not, but they don’t. So congrats on turning ….. ummm uhh. Well whatever Happy Birthday. +Smile if your thinking about sex+
Everyone should be smiling, because sex is always on our minds, because the media uses it to make things more appealing. Nothing is hotter than seeing some blonde skank on a wet soapy car in a tiny little bikini, eating a cheeseburger. I mean like daymn. All I can think about is mcdonalds now.
Sex sEx sEx Sex seX Sex seX.
Yeah. Still thinking about those fries.
Sex seX sEx Sex Sex sEx Sex SeX
And those chicken nuggets.
SEX!
Anyway, I still have not done any math homework. FAIL. So yeah I’m going to sign off, and go do it.
Peace <3

I’m sorry.

It’s never good to watch a movie when every twitch feels like an earthquake. It gets annoying to feel like everyone is staring at you. I thought I was going to drop the cup. I don’t remember much of anything I said. I was totally out of it on these stupid pills. (Don’t worry, not like actual drugs or anything.) That’s what you get for not eating before I took them. I now feel very annoyed, because I made him think I was mad at him. All while totally pissing him off, I remember how many times I heard that. Which is why I thought he had hung up on purpose. But he said he didn’t, so I believe him. But last night he hung up, and all I thought was like are you fucking serious right now? Like I was like, ok I hated when Connor hung up on me and it was instant pain, hurt, and anger. But then I clamed down. Realized I was being stupid. Thought about calling him back, and fell asleep crying instead. And then I woke up (Very late, I totally over-slept) And listened to all the messages he left, and I wanted to say ‘I’m not mad at you, I could never stay mad at you, I’m so sorry I didn’t call you back, i'm sorry I turned off my phone’. But I didn’t say that. I text Good morning sunshine instead. And then I went to do my hair, and he called, so I went and called him back. And he was still like half asleep so I don’t remember what he had said, it was all very quiet. Hopefully, I remembered to apologize. If not, Hun I am so sorry, for everything. I feel terrible; I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me. Not the only stupid thing I did yesterday. I bought a green shirt. With ruffles. What was I thinking? Green ruffles, on me, yeah right. I’m going to test it tomorrow. If James likes it, then it will be fine. Because he is always truthful. Which can get annoying, but I wish everyone were as truthful as he is. But yeah, There was this other shirt I totally thought was hot, but that was a bit slutty. Lol not like that has ever stopped me before. But yeah, it’s a cute halter, and it will be cool all summer. And some random thoughts, I want to go for a walk, The house is a mess, I am kinda hungry- but I’m not eating, My leg is super itchy, I hate this song I don’t even know why its on my ipod, I wish my hair would hurry up and grow I’m so fucking sick of having it short, I hope Kassee remembers were meeting up for lunch, I still have a fricken hour left of this class, its taking forever, Um I hope we have kraft dinner for supper. And I think I have to pee.

Today.
Take a deep breath.
Compliment yourself.
Know that everything happens for a reason.
And take something that could be bad, and let it roll right off your shoulders.
ENJOY LIFE!