If only life was like the OC

Hmmm. Mercy Ship.

I kinda want to be a kindergarten teacher
Which is something I have always thought about but now Its something I really want to do. Because there are these ships, and they are state of the art hospitals. And they dock all over Africa, and soon Asia. And they are looking for kindergarten teachers for long term. I think it would be so rewarding. I read a book about Mercy Ships, and it seemed so...
I dont know how to even explain it. But It made me want to help. And I dont think I could be a nurse or doctor on the ship, I have such a weak stomach. But being a teacher, I could still help out. So I'm going to keep looking into it.
I'm actually kinda really excited.

=)

I had such a wonderful day.
I did laundry.
I cooked dinner.
I worked out.
It was awesome.
Tomorrow I'm cooking again,
after I finish the house work.
Tonight I made steak, with baked rigatoni and Cesar salad.
It was great.
I feel so happy, drifting around doing simple stuff.
Like I enjoy helping and feeling useful.
But omg a miscommunication is leaving me uneasy.
I dont know what I'm going to do.

Nothing makes me smile more than having my head in the toilet all day.

So I'm not going swimming friday,
I'm going saturday, till about five, then me and Jess are going skating till midnight.
Swimming opens at like 8am so we shall probably go early.
And its like a mini birthday thing.
So I'm excited.
I mean since my birthday is on Tuesday.
(Yay Sweet Sixteen)
I really dont do birthdays anymore.
I always try to make big plans,
but then I always turn to something small.
Last three years its been just a few small friends skating.
Now I'm going swimming and skating.
Lol.
I've invited a few other people, but everyone seems to have plans.
But thats ok.
I dont need alot of people around me.
I'm happy with Jessica, since she's like my best friend ever!
So i'm glad I can still chill with her.

Oh lets add I hate the fricken dentist.
I dont even have wisdom teeth!
So why want to send me to a specialist to get them yanked?
Like WTF!
Like they are seriously not there,
not showing,
Not under my gums.
I don't have any!
And you took the x-rays,
you should know.


So now I'm afraid to go back.
Add that to the list of other things I'm scared of that I shouldn't be.
(Ex. Clowns!)

And so the battle begins!

I wonder how long this screaming match will last?
I cant take it, I need to get out of here.
Fuck.

Awww. <3

Hello darlin' happy birthday
I've decided not to give you a present this year
In fact I think it's about time I took some things away
I'd like to take away the suspicion that I know clouds your world at times
By giving you some faith to hold on to honey whenever your hand is not in mine

Happy birthday darlin' I've no presents no fancy cake
But I hope I'll make you happy with everything I take

I'd like to take away some of your lonely moments by spendin' more of mine with you
And I'd like to take away some of those so-so kisses
And replace them with ones that really say I love you
And I wanna take away the doubt you sometimes have about my love
By showin' more much more that I've shown lately
And then if someone had asked you what I've got you for your birthday
Well you can say why he didn't gave me anything but he sure took a lotta things away

Happy birthday darlin' I've no presents no fancy cake
But I hope I'll make you happy with everything I take

Happy birthday darlin' I've no presents no fancy cake
But I hope I'll make you happy with everything I take

Happy birthday darlin'


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