What if I said I cherish you? What if I said that I always will?

You wouldn't say anything.
You never do.
It's like I'm invisable.

I feel like i'm dying.
My fever isn't breaking,
I can't eat anything.
I'm so hot its disgusting.
My back aches, as my head does.
Plus i'm coughing and sneezing.
I havent moved all day, mostly because I cant,
I'm so sick of this couch.
And this is the fifth day in a row i have had a back ache and head ache.
So i'm going to the doctors tomorrow.
Which i'm not looking forward to.
I hate doctors.
This is when i wish i had a guy in my life.
Lol, he could come hold my hand at the doctors.
Because yes, i am that wimpy.
As much as i would love to have someone to take care of,
sometimes i need to be taken care of.
Regardless, im not looking forward to tomorrow.
At all.

BLECH!!

Wow that didn't take long.
Which sucks, but glad I'm out of the race.
So it worked out for the best.
I'm over it.

But I'm happy to have many plans for the upcoming week.
This week, English exam, Birthday cake for my dad (its going to be awesome!),
Jeff and Ryan
Jessica and Dan,
Kyla and hopefully Jesse.

I'm so not feeling good.
My throat is like sand paper.

I've decided to not care about anything.
I'm just going to live.

And let the job hunt begin!

Today sucks.
Talking with him started nice,
but ended with me irritated.
And then I burnt my effing hand.
I went to school, for one class, the only class i had today.
My hand was throbbing.
And all that happened was people played cards.
I feel totally ill, knowing that I might see Connor,
or worse,
His mother.
Especially since he goes for sentencing monday.
Ugh.
And not only did Nicky lose her baby,
she has had to carry it around for the last month.
I feel so bad for her.
She's such a sweetheart, she shouldn't have had to endure tat.
I'm happy the day is almost over.

Ok so i missed one period.
I actually made it back for my last class.
So i'm happy were in the computer lab.
=) Calm is so boring sometimes. I'm glad i can waste it on here.
So I bought this cute black and purple bustier.
I changed my mind on the teddie, for now.
And they had shirts on sale, so i bought this cute quarter-sleeve black thing.
Its got the Batman symbol on it, i love it.
And then some cute make up i can't wait to try,
along with make up brushes.
It was nice having money to spend.
I sold one of my batons, so I had money in my pockets.
Plus I have enough left over for smokes.
Yay.
Lol I'm sure a certain friend of mine will be happy.
She doesn't smoke. But she loves to inhale my second hand smoke.
Which makes me think she just needs to start smoking.
Seeing how secondhand smokers dont have a filter.
!!! Its taking all my will power not to smoke my dads cuban.
Its just sitting there.
Ugh.
But grounded for life doesn't sound to appealling.

ps. The Dark Knight, is quite possibly the best movie ever.

I wish i didnt care about you.
I wish I could turn my back and heart on you.
But I can't.
Why?
Because I'm not you.

Hmm, Bullet through the head or heart?