Well i'm done
Hate these fake friends
People who use, lie and hurt you.
Guys,
Girls
... All the same.

Time For new
Toxic
Friends
New people to
Burn
Break
Destroy Me

I Guess im not Worthy to have
Real
Love
Real
Friends
Real
Trust

Seriously, I miss him.
If he was here I would kiss him at midnight.
But hes in another country.
And even if he wasn't, he would'nt spend new years eve with me.
Let alone let me kiss him.
I dont know if were friends anymore.

In the meantime Jess is having a fun new years eve so im happy.

Happy face.

Went snowboarding again today.
It was freaking cold, but so much fun!
And i only hurt myself once.
Face first, with my legs all awkward.
It would have been a great wipeout if i was doing something cool, and not tripping off the chair lift.
I bought this cute shirt thats so totally me.
Its got a green run symbol and says easiest. then it has one of those name tag things and says, Hello: I suck.
Its great.
Either way i cant wait to go again soon.
Hoping for nice weather.

You know who you are.

Wow, its been forever since we've talked.
I'm sad your in a gang and doing heavy drugs.
And I'm sorry your dad emotionally abuses you.
But you are such an amazing soul.
And your talented when put your mind to it.
You are worth more than that.
Dont give up yet.
I'm sorry I beat the shit out of you in grade 9.
If i had known then, what I do now, well I probably still would have done it.
So sorry, again.
I'm glad you can confide in me.
But i can only do so much.
You understand you have a problem, and you know what the trigger was.
I think if you went into a good therapy program, and maybe like NA (Narcotics Anonymous)
You could straighten out.
And grow into the man you know you can be.
Remember i care about you, and when it feels like the world has turned its back on you,
I'm here.
Okay?
Call me whenever you need hun.

Kinda random quotes because i'm bored at two am.

Just because she comes off strong doesnt mean she didnt fall asleep crying.

Advice is what we ask for when we already know the answer but wish we didn't

After I wake up from dreaming about you, I have the biggest smile on my face, then it quickly fades away, cause I realize that it was just a dream, & you`re not really mine


It's not about the amount of friends you have
it's about how many you can trust.


Sometimes People Put Up Wall's, Not To Keep Other's Out. But To See Who Cares Enough,To Tear Them Down


Friendship isn't about who you've known the longest, its about who came along and never left


Friendships are like glass,
Once they are broken,
They can never be fixed
To the extent that they were made

&& always remember that no matter what, through thick and thin, that always and forever we're gonna be best friends and i'll always love you like my own sis



-Courtesy of www.poems-and-quotes.com

And I take back the Jeff comment.
I dont want it to be like that.
Because reading my old journals, (im not girly enough to have a diary)
I realized how much it hurt.
I'm over it now.
But it took me a long time.
So i kinda hope if anything its a clean break.
So he wont speak to me at all.
I mean obviously i wish we could go back to being friends,
but i dont think thats gonna happen anyways.

"And all i have to say is goodbye, were better off this way."
-Secondhand Serenade

(Sad face, Emo tear.)

Eek.

I'm so sore.
Not from typical snowboarding acheyness.
That doesnt bother me, in fact I love it.
But I dont love the neck injury from crashing into my brother.
And yay were going agian wednesday, (weather permitting)
Im so excited. Hopefully my neck feels better.
=)
Side notes.
(I seriously need to start my homework!)
(I want to go skating with jessie when she gets back.)
<3